I must sound like a broken record but venting here really lets me cool off and feel a bit better, so I am super sorry for all the negative energy I have been posting lately!!!

So today was a day full of suck and Hell and a little crazy!!!
Starts out at like 2am ish my little sister scares the crap out of me and a super tomodachi because I didn't know she was home yet from California. I go to bed at 3am and wake up at 6am as usual. I feed the animals and I am so tired but I have so much to do today and not enough time so I start working on my last online quiz and the final paper for my online class. I finish at about 11am ish? and my little brother just got back from spending the night at my cousins house(you would bring him home early Pfft yeah right!)

Now it is time to clean the house as was my mother's command when she left for a relaxing getaway to the cabin. It isn't until 12pm that I finally get my siblings to help me clean a little! tho neither one is much help especially when they are fighting non stop! 2pm we have to take a lunch break before someone gets killed by the other, so I make lunch and somehow end up having to clean everything up afterwards too!

3pm I have to go to the store because my mother wants dinner served when she arrives home. So my sister and I walk to the walmart by school and pick up stuff for chicken fettucini Alfredo, angle food cake and then milk, soda, and eggs cus we are out of those. And at walmart that &*$%#%* Told me you are not allowed to bring your own bags into the store I would have to leave my bag at the customer service desk. What The Hell!!! I am trying to help the environment by not using plastic bags and you say I can't!!! Whatever! I hope you choke on your water! Finally we lug our stuff home. Only to be told it's 4pm and we only have 1 hour until my mother gets home.

Now the house should have been clean because we only left my brother a load of laundry, mop the kitchen and wash the cake pan he used and has been refusing to wash for days now. We come home and he is watching TV and nothing have been done!!! But I have no time because I have to get a cake in the oven and cook a full dinner spread! 5pm my mother comes home!

I thought I told you to have the house clean!!!! she is pissed just because the few jobs my brother still hasn't done. And of course it is my fault for not doing them because he is 12 and I am 20 so I am an adult and need to take responsibility. Next my cousin decides to call my mother and tell her how irresponsible I am for partying all night when I have a little brother to take care of! Well yes last night I went to a pretty quite going away party for a few hours. If my brother couldn't stay at my cousin's house I was going to feed him put him to bed and then go to the party, if he needed anything he could call me. Well my cousin freaked out saying what a horrible person I was for thinking of leaving my 12 year old brother all by himself for a few hours... I however see no problem with this! when he was 10 my mother worked and left him at home for a few hours during the day but when I even think about doing it the world will explode.

I got yelled at all day by my mother and cousin, but honestly even if I had left him alone for that time I see nothing wrong with it so they can yell all they want I would still do the same thing in the future. Although now my mother says I am not allowed out of the house as "punishment" I had to hold back my laughter at that point because honestly she cant tell me when I can and cant go out I am an adult remember! lol silly mother I just cant wait till I leave this pathetic life behind! Japan come faster ne!!! By the way happy mother's day, I was hoping my mother would notice how much I cleaned the house for her, what I had gone through to get and make her dinner and also she didn't even say anything about the Amazon.com gift card I got her(that she has been hinting about for the last month) I had to ask her and all she said was "yeah I got it thanks" %$^$##$&*^&^)^&$$# GOD!!!! I worked so hard for you why the hell do you try so hard to hate me!!!!

*sigh* I hope that one day when I get married my mother in law treats me like her real child! I want to know what it feels like to actually have a mother figure that truly likes you for who you are! Wishful thinking ne lol!