So I ended up going to work today even tho the sub system was down. I was planning on spending my day upgrading my teaching status and catching up on home work but instead I had to work for a stupid idiot of a teacher and basically do nothing!!!

But the main reason why I feel like crawling into a whole and dying right now is because I got into one of the biggest fights I have ever had with my mother. less than 2 weeks ago I started paying my mother back the money I borrowed in Japan. I started with $200, I tried giving it to her right out of the bank but she told me to wait until we get home and she'd put it in an envelope and label it so we would know where we were with things. I was shocked when my mother got the envelope right when we got home, normally she would wait and do things before getting it. But she was on the phone holding out the envelope for me. I put the money in and felt great cus that was 200 less I had to worry about.

That was until today when my mom asked when I was planning to start paying her back the money I owed her... "oh I haven't gotten my second paycheck yet!" " No you haven't payed me from your first paycheck!!!" "Ummmm your joking right?!?" "You know I am not joking where is the money?" That was when I started to panic! I had given her the $200 just a few days ago!!! I told her when and how I gave it to her. "Don't you dare tell me those lies (insert full name)!!!" " I AM NOT LYING!!! How do you not remember!!" She then told me that I had better get her that 200 come hell or high water! That she was crazy to ever think she could trust me and she would be sure never to trust me again. She was close to telling me to just get out of the house!

I'm not going to lie, I started crying towards the end... On one hand I am mad at my mother she lost that money and now I have to pay for it!! On the other hand I am worried for my mother... she keeps forgetting things, I gave her this money and it was really important and she lost it. She keeps going to the store and getting random things instead of getting groceries... She has always forgot to pick me up so that is not something to go by but recently she has been forgetting me alot! I just don't know what to do! I seem to be saying that alot lately but I am so stressed! I can't afford to pay $200 extra dollars... I wish life wasn't always about money, and I wish my mother wasn't always to horrible to me!