Ok so yesterday was the best best day of my life so far!

It started out with boring school which led to going to karaoke for 3 hours and then to lingerie shopping in Harajuku (which was fun all in itself) But then I get a call from my Japanese friend (the one Koyama's mom introduced us to!) She was apologizing for not being able to make karaoke... and she informed us she had 2 extra TegoMass tickets for only $65 each!!! OMG I am soo lucky!!! So now I am going to TegoMass on August 5th at Yoyogi gym!!! But my good day didn't end there. After walking home with on sale lingerie and a crepe we started watching Yamapi's new drama Buzzer Beat! AND WE WHERE IN IT!!!!! The third day we where in Japan we went to watch the drama filming and had an awesome time but since we sat in an off camera seat we never thought we would appear in the drama BUT!!! We saw us! 3 times! Uwhaaaa best day ever!!!!












Can you find us? look for the tall one!

WOW am I lucky or what! first Yamapi now KoyaTegoMass!!! Tracy THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU for finding it for me! I will pay you back ok! Well I was able to got to a filming of Shounen Club. I had to sit way far in the very back... damn you lottery seating! I had to sit on the 3rd story side section towards the back a bit BUT I could still see pretty well! Mostly the filming was of the HeySayers to whom I dont care a great deal about too bad my little sister couldnt have come that show was made for her! Full of Yamada Ryusuke! Him and those HeySay boys are acting way to sexy for there age ne! Mini Massu (I believe his name is Daiki?) you are one sexy little boy you better be careful cus man pedophiles will be all over you with those moves you where doing!

There was sooo much HSJ and soooo many loud, obnoxious, and over-all RUDE HSJ fans!!! Let Koyama talk and stop yelling out the kids' names! I couldn't hear any of the conversions because all I heard was members names being called from all directions!!! What the Hell calm down it's not like them can see you up here in the nose-bleed section anyways!

Finally TegoMass comes out! YAY I LOVE MASSU's YUKATA!!!! it was half navy blue with white stars and then half white with navy blue stars!!! the obi was pink which didnt match at all but I love Massu when he doesnt match! Tegoshi had a red yukata with white poka-dots reminded me of old school Minnie-mouses dress lol! Oh and as for hair Massu still has the blonde top black tips and Tegoshi... tesshi tesshi tesshi! Are you really trying to look like a girl? what with the poka-dot yukata and the tight curled ringlet hairstyle, it was a girly sight!

Massu kept hugging Koyama from behind the whole time and when Tegoshi tryed to join he was rejected! LOL it was hilarious! TegoMass sang beautifully!!! and then it was more HSJ this time tho it was HeySayBest Abake!!! it was soo funny tho cus on the second question TegoMass come out with HSB are blindfolded, they then start talking bad about Yabu and Hikaru and HSB doesn't know which member is saying these things it was soo funny!!! Finally they revieled and all was ok! when leaving the stage Massu did a cool looking handshake with Hikaru! That was the end of TegoMass... the HeySayers and some juniors played guess whats in the box which was hilarious, Yamada screaming like a 5 year old girl was priceless!

It ended and I went home! It was a lot of fun and I hope soon I can get even closer to Massu!

Did I mention how much I love our apartment! It is the perfect size and is in a really good location! We were busy for the first few days here, getting foreigner registration, paying rent, getting gas and Internet setup. Finally on the third day we were free so we went to the filming on Yamapi's drama. Yamapi is soo small in real life! But really nice too! We were so close to getting to go to a cast dinner! But it seemed that our luck ran out! But that was the best day ever... I mean having Yamapi smile at you, laugh with you, and stare at you all night long, what could be better ne?

The next day we joined a gym, I then bought some gym shoes and had my first crepe... OISHI!!!!! it was the most delicious thing ever!!! Today we went to Shibuya and bought cell phones! YAY I finally have a cell phones!!! I get free e-mail so SUPER tomodachis (you know who you are!!!) e-mail me at kwoodward@softbank.ne.jp After that went to karaoke! SO MUCH FUN!!! and then for some even more fun went to a free live concert. Jenny's bassist was playing with another group! OMG the singer had the voice of an angel (almost on level with Massu and that means a lot to me!) Some breakdancer preformed after that, they were sooo good!

It started raining after the concert and has been since. Just ate some pasta, not the best. I am off to Leaders house, he wants to play with my hair... should I be scared? He has a curling iron! Well we will see! ttyl jaa!

I've been in Japan now for almost 2 days! I LOVE IT!!!! The plane ride over here was sooo long but after finally getting to our apartment it was amazing! Japan's overall feel for me was a little like California, lots of green and good weather! It is a bit humid but i like it! The food here is great too! and our apartment is so cute! although it came with almost nothing in it we had to buy a lot of stuff to put in it! I met with a friend's friend, hi name is Yusuke, he spoke only Japanese but he was a funny guy, plus he knows and somewhat likes Johnnys... he loled at the fact that I like Massu... he was like "Massu?!?! hahahaha" Well that's all I have to say for now so ttyl

P.S. I LOVE MELON PAN!

Had a great lunch at Ichiza's today, food was delicious and I had a blast!
I thought having my family over would be awkward with all the bickering they have been doing but it turned out pretty good... now I just have Sunday with the other half, I still need some tomodachi's to save me!
Senpai's dropped by my house today to borrow a printer, my family was nice enough. They didn't believe that my house is a zoo... well they do now, Asuka screamed when my birds started fighting for her attention lol they are pretty loud when that happens!
Last day of soccer tomorrow, a game that I can't go to, why am I even going again? Kanji Kentei at 1~ish! I'll pass no problem! After that shopping with my older sister, I have to spend that A&F $50 gift card she got me for a birthday/Christmas combo present! I want a T-shirt or 2! I also need a big memory thing for my computer and a skin for it, it's just getting so scratched up!

Well only 2 more full days left! I don't feel nervous or excited right now... more like "get on with it already!" ttyl jaa

Ok so my mother ended up taking over my stupid going away party! (which as of right now I dont care if it happens or not) BUT the final word is that it will be at my Uncle Jerry's house. Which is really nice and huge! He is really excited about it because I have never asked to have a party at his house before (awww he was all cute when he got excited, kinda like when my dad fanboys stuff) But anywho I am calling the Super Tomodachis, and anyone else that wants to come... go ahead invite a friend! The house has a pool, trampoline, billiards, Wii, other game stations which I cant remember, a huge grass field (volleyball anyone?lol) And also my Cousin is making her shredded steak tacos which are the best I have ever tasted! plus there will be other food as well... sooo please come cus I dont want to be stuck with my family all by myself and since I was told to invite friends you have to come ok >_

Well looks like I will be riding with my supertomodachi to the airport Monday. I was clinging to hope that my family would want to see me off, since they wont get to see me for 3 months and all... Nope they would rather sleep in! My mother made it clear that she did not want to take me to the airport! lol my family sure loves me ne! I kinda feel a little awful inside, what is this feeling? kinda like emptiness but not quite... lol oh well it's not like I really expected them to want to say goodbye properly, I just... it was just wishful thinking ne!

*sigh* I kinda feel like crying but that wouldn't help anything! It just hurts knowing and being reminded that your parents don't love you as much as other parents love their children! I have to admit I am a bit jealous of my friends, sure nobody has perfect parents but I am tried of trying and failing for my parents! It's been like this all my life, I am just never as good as my other siblings in anything! My older sister was the best at any sport she played she didn't even have to try she just was good at it! My older brother got in trouble a lot but he was so street smart he could get away with a lot with my parents(not sure if this is really a good quality?!) My little sister gets straight A's while playing sports and an instrument, not to mention she has my father wrapped around her finger, and lastly my younger brother "the child that can do no wrong!" Where am I in this? I am the forgotten child, no really I have been left and forgotten in so many places, I think I am so "my paced" because I am used to wasting time waiting for my parents to remember me! *sigh* I am just too soft and too eager to please others, I should try to stop this because it gets me nowhere but hurt.

OMG sorry I promised not to post these negative posts anymore!!! Sorry! I just needed to vent! It must be boring reading that! Well I will keep trying to only write happy thoughts from now on! Like how I am leaving in less than a week!!! I have the school paid for, the plane paid for, the apartment on hold! We have the game plan for when we first get there down! (basically go as fast as we can to get the the apartment agency before they close!) I can't wait this will be so much fun! well I am off to try to get some boring work done! ttyl Jaa!

Holy Crap it's JUNE 1st!!! June as in the month I am leaving to Japan!! as is I have less than a week left! This is crazy! My heart is beating so fast! I don't know what to do with myself! This feeling is so different, it's like I've never wanted something like this, more in my life! and it's finally happening! I am

Since this is my only day off until we leave for Japan I am starting to pack, making a list of everything I need, things like that. I realized I really need more clothes AND I really need to get rid of a lot of clothes that are either too small, I never wear, or have holes in them! I have a problem of never wanting to get rid of my clothes because they are all special to me, but this must be done! I hope I can go shopping tonight before going to Chris~senpai's house, I need more shorts! I noticed I have alot of boy type clothes, It would be nice to have more girly clothes but I dont think my body is the right shape for that...

I also had to make a decision on what notes to bring... I went through all of my past school notes(not just my Japanese ones) I only kept Chemisty 121 and Physics 121 I also found out that I still have ALL of my past Japanese notes starting from 111-211 there is so much stuff! I had to go through all of my study material from the JLPT and I got depressed because I really did study so much for that test!!! I kept some of it because it might be helpful next year. In the end I decided to take my Nakama 1 and 2, my kanji book, and all the in class grammar points from 211. I am also taking 3 empty notebooks and a binder.

I tryed on the fancy dresses I am taking with me just in case we go to a club or 2 or more. One i've had for quite some time and I must have gotten taller since I last wore it a few years ago cus I dont remember it being quite this short, it still fits but it's very short! It will look very nice if I lose a little weight in my thighs, lets hope that happens with all the walking I'll be doing!

I restocked my first aid kit and hygiene kit so all I really need to do now is pack my outfits! oh and a few other things like my NewS calender and Massu Uchiwa. I can't pack my carry-on bag till the night before because I just use too much of that stuff! Well I need to get back to packing so I can at least see how many outfits I have right now! ttyl jaa

OMG!!!! TegoMass summer concert!!! I will seriously kill to go to this concert!!!! I dont care what the price or what I have to do to get tickets I am going!!!! Massu wait for me! I will be there no matter what!!!!

Wow I had such a long weekend! So much happened too!

Saturday was the first day of our soccer tournament and it went pretty smoothly... I was upset we didn't do concessions (this meant no free food!) That and the ice cream selling people cancelled so I had no ice cream either! So I didn't eat much the whole weekend.

I was in charge of security Saturday night $100 to spend the night at the soccer park. not wanting to do it alone I got my senpai to stay with me and we watched dramas and SmapxSmap all night long! We split the money and actually got paid $60 each instead of $50! Yes I love making easy money!

Well next day I still had to stay at the park all day. I was super tired so I went to my dad's truck and fell asleep... not a good idea seeing as the temperature was just starting to rise and I fell asleep in a totally enclosed car... I work up totally drenched in sweat (which is a rarity in itself because I don't sweat easy) I felt horrible! I felt sicker than I ever have. so I dragged my sorry self to the bathroom splashed some water on my face and went in search of some drinking water.

I felt better after sitting in the shade and drinking lots of water! Finally after 40 hours at the soccer park we got to go home! Oh also at the tournament my little sister hurt her knee! We have to take to to a specialist today to see what's really wrong but we think she might have torn something! Her lager than life ego took a beating at school today because she is in a knee brace and on crutches! She didn't want to go to school at all but she had too! Although it is annoying going to school hurt, everyone asking you what is wrong and people trying to help you when you don't need help! I hated being injured!!! But it happens!

Had super fun yesterday learning how to play volleyball!!! I have a feeling I could get pretty good at this! I just need to understand the rules better, I never know if I can hit the ball or not, or how to hit it... I guess this just comes with practice? I did really good for my first time ever playing a game!I wanna play more!!!

OMG I am signing up for school tonight! Why am I so nervous?! I am excited too!

Jaa ne ttyl!

Today was another good day ne! Although I am a bit sick with a cold, it hurts to talk but nothing to get my spirits down! It will most likely be better tomorrow!

So just now I had a big dilemma... I was playing with Puppy~chan (who still has yet to get an official name, today the favorite is Loony actually Luna but I like Loony better lol) anyways we are playing when *JUMP* she is on the bed and walking across... MY COMPUTER!!!!! NOOOOOOOO! I throw her off and ">_< ... Everything is upside-down!!!! Everything! It takes me a good ten minutes to mess with it trying to figure out how I can fix it before YES!!! I got internet! I get online with the screen still upside-down and all the functions backwards and search how to fix it. Turns out it was super easy to fix! *phew* that was a close one! I was panicing there for a while but it's all good now!

Also since my school district job ends this week I am out of a job after the 22nd of this month... BUT I went to the soccer office with my mother today only to find out that the office manager is in a bind and needs another worker for the next 3 weeks! YES!!! I cant work this week but for the next 2 I can! I really really needed this!!! This will give me that last $1000 I was hoping for! Now I dont need to worry about money as much while in Japan and I wont have to ask my parents for money! Plus I will get free lunchs for the next 2 weeks! That is very important to me as well lol! I am just really gratefull that this is working out for me, I am finally happy that some good things are happening in my life!

What else happened lately? oh at school they put my kid with another teacher Hahaha she couldn't handle him! I know that is really mean but it makes me feel happy to have a kid that only listens to me! It makes me want my own kid... but then again I only spend 7 hours a day with this kid and having one of my own would be way longer... on second thought I dont want kids! First off because they start off as babies and little babies scare the crap out of me! they are ok when they get a little older and are all cute and chubby but newer babies I dont like being around them at all they creep me out and I dont really know why! I want to skip the newborn stage and just jump to like 6 months or something like that lol But I have decided for the next LONG Long time No babies for me!!! I'll just take care of other peoples children and get my parenting fix from that, because I would make an awesome mother... most of the time anyways lol

Ok I have babbled on long enough! Oh one last thing... Right now and going to Japan it feels like I am climbing up the steps of a high dive I am getting more and more nervous as I reach the top!! That is what I feel like right now! The nervous excitment of leaping off something tall! well that's the best way I can explain it!

And before I forget GRADE UPDATE!!! I am still missing my Ecologoy grade cus online classes suck!!! and Anthropology because my teacher died of cancer mid semester so I have no problem waiting for my grade in that class! But otherwise I have:
A in Kanji I (well duh!)
B in MicroEconomics (I could have gotten an A but I ditched too much, meh it was worth it!)
B in Geology (haha! I didn't do the homework and I still passed Take that stupid homework!!)
B in Geology Lab (I still hate you!)
B in Japanese 211 (I am happy with it!)
ttyl Jaa

My writings here have turned from daily to weekly lol... I am just so busy with things and the fact that my Internet is crap at home it is hard for me to update as I please.

Can you believe it?! only 22 days until I will finally be in Japan!!! It is so unreal I can't really wrap my head around it! I have never been fully on my own for so long before and in a foreign country too! I am ready for my life changing experience! I hope I can change for the better! I also realize how much I really want to travel to other places too! I want to explore Europe! And go on a safari in Africa! I want to see so much more of the world I have been blind to until somewhat recently... of course I don't want to see all of this too quickly, I am young and have a long life ahead of me so I will take my time and eventually see the world!

For now I want to have a great time in Japan, improve my speaking ability and have a safe trip! I want to meet a nice guy or 2 and experience a real relationship and God damn it if another guy dates me and tells me after the fact that he just might be gay I just might have to kill something! lol I really do hope to meet Massu and fall in love and all that (you never know dreams do come true sometimes) but then again I really don't want to get tied down and the thing about marring a Johnny's is that work would most likely come first for them... would I really be able to live with that? I don't know yet but time will tell!

After Japan I will most likely come back as if nothing had changed here... I will still be going to school full time, I will try my hardest to get my drivers licence(even tho I am a horrible driver... I recommend everyone stay off the roads while I am out and about)I will also be working as much as I can (this time to pay back any debt I have) My job as a substitute will be hard. Many teachers are getting laid off this summer and most of them will take up subbing until they can get rehired, this makes it hard on me finding a job everyday. I want to try working with people so I can get better people skills, Starbucks sounds like an awesome job! I like making drinks and I really need to develop speaking skills, when it comes to talking to new people alone I fail! Plus all the cool kids work at Starbucks!lol

Today I saw Angels and Demons with a Senpai! Uwaaaa It was good!!! I have seen a lot of movies and they have all been good... even tho I shouldn't be going to movies because I have no money!!! but today I used a movie pass so it was free to me! Yay for spending no money and having a great time! *sigh* this week I work everyday 8-3:30 which is good cus I need the money BUT it is also the week leading up to my family's soccer tournament. We have teams flying here from all over the US even teams from Hawaii! I just hope it all goes smoothly, I will be so tired! And the weekend after that is Spring Fling another tournament I have to run! at least I will get my soccer fix before leaving to Japan! And the weekend after that is the Kanji Kentei! From today onward I will have no free weekends! I will just have to push forward everyday for 22 more days! Yosh! (O~O)v Peace out!

For Gods sake just shut up mother!!!! I don't want to fight you! Just stop trying to pick a fight with me!

*sigh* this morning she was asking me about what my rent would be in Japan. "$600 is too much they are over charging you! You can't stay there!" Ummm this is actually a great price in Japan!!! "What you have to pay utilities too!! What kind of shitty place is this? There is no way utilities are around $100 per person! You are wrong!!" Ok mother you know all this because you are a Japanese housing expert right? You are so wise to tell me I am wrong because you have been to Japan and know this for a fact? Oh how about NO! You don't have a clue! You have no right to tell me anything you racist hypocrite! Ok enough of this rant I just needed to get this off my chest... I am still a bit bitter towards my mother from yesterday too, so now it's best to just spend my time away from her!

I must sound like a broken record but venting here really lets me cool off and feel a bit better, so I am super sorry for all the negative energy I have been posting lately!!!

So today was a day full of suck and Hell and a little crazy!!!
Starts out at like 2am ish my little sister scares the crap out of me and a super tomodachi because I didn't know she was home yet from California. I go to bed at 3am and wake up at 6am as usual. I feed the animals and I am so tired but I have so much to do today and not enough time so I start working on my last online quiz and the final paper for my online class. I finish at about 11am ish? and my little brother just got back from spending the night at my cousins house(you would bring him home early Pfft yeah right!)

Now it is time to clean the house as was my mother's command when she left for a relaxing getaway to the cabin. It isn't until 12pm that I finally get my siblings to help me clean a little! tho neither one is much help especially when they are fighting non stop! 2pm we have to take a lunch break before someone gets killed by the other, so I make lunch and somehow end up having to clean everything up afterwards too!

3pm I have to go to the store because my mother wants dinner served when she arrives home. So my sister and I walk to the walmart by school and pick up stuff for chicken fettucini Alfredo, angle food cake and then milk, soda, and eggs cus we are out of those. And at walmart that &*$%#%* Told me you are not allowed to bring your own bags into the store I would have to leave my bag at the customer service desk. What The Hell!!! I am trying to help the environment by not using plastic bags and you say I can't!!! Whatever! I hope you choke on your water! Finally we lug our stuff home. Only to be told it's 4pm and we only have 1 hour until my mother gets home.

Now the house should have been clean because we only left my brother a load of laundry, mop the kitchen and wash the cake pan he used and has been refusing to wash for days now. We come home and he is watching TV and nothing have been done!!! But I have no time because I have to get a cake in the oven and cook a full dinner spread! 5pm my mother comes home!

I thought I told you to have the house clean!!!! she is pissed just because the few jobs my brother still hasn't done. And of course it is my fault for not doing them because he is 12 and I am 20 so I am an adult and need to take responsibility. Next my cousin decides to call my mother and tell her how irresponsible I am for partying all night when I have a little brother to take care of! Well yes last night I went to a pretty quite going away party for a few hours. If my brother couldn't stay at my cousin's house I was going to feed him put him to bed and then go to the party, if he needed anything he could call me. Well my cousin freaked out saying what a horrible person I was for thinking of leaving my 12 year old brother all by himself for a few hours... I however see no problem with this! when he was 10 my mother worked and left him at home for a few hours during the day but when I even think about doing it the world will explode.

I got yelled at all day by my mother and cousin, but honestly even if I had left him alone for that time I see nothing wrong with it so they can yell all they want I would still do the same thing in the future. Although now my mother says I am not allowed out of the house as "punishment" I had to hold back my laughter at that point because honestly she cant tell me when I can and cant go out I am an adult remember! lol silly mother I just cant wait till I leave this pathetic life behind! Japan come faster ne!!! By the way happy mother's day, I was hoping my mother would notice how much I cleaned the house for her, what I had gone through to get and make her dinner and also she didn't even say anything about the Amazon.com gift card I got her(that she has been hinting about for the last month) I had to ask her and all she said was "yeah I got it thanks" %$^$##$&*^&^)^&$$# GOD!!!! I worked so hard for you why the hell do you try so hard to hate me!!!!

*sigh* I hope that one day when I get married my mother in law treats me like her real child! I want to know what it feels like to actually have a mother figure that truly likes you for who you are! Wishful thinking ne lol!

Long time no write.... I really feel like jumping off a really tall building right now, like 13 stories should do nicely! I think if I wasn't about to leave my life behind and go to Japan sadly I really might do it right now. I've just been having a shitty time lately...

I referee soccer on Saturdays and today just had some really stupid parents, It's hard to do your job when you have a sideline of more than 20 people yelling at you because their daughter just tripped over a clump of grass. It's not a foul when they fall on their own retards!

I am also upset because I worked really hard on a fundraiser to buy prizes for a contest... I got $6 and some good memories out of the fundraiser so I really shouldn't complain but when it came time for the much anticipated contest I was let down a bit. We made around $200 to buy prizes so I was under the impression there would be lots of prizes for many people to win... but I was mistaken because only 3 people would win the many prizes. I was also under the impression that we would be grouped according to grade level... but it turned out that only the 3 top grade level students won the prizes... I didn't care so much that I didn't win, because I made quite a few mistakes but No one in my grade level or a lower grade level won anything! I thought 1 or 2 people from each grade level would win a prize. That is a small part of my bitterness towards life right now.

Next Puppy peed on the bed my little sister was sleeping in last night... I didn't know at the time but this morning my mother asked "did the puppy pee on the bed? you need to clean it up if she did!" So I go ask my sister if the puppy peed... No answer she is "too busy" getting ready and ignores me ... SO I come home to find my sister sleeping in my bed. "What are you doing in my bed? I want to go to sleep so move!" "The puppy peed in my bed and mom told you to clean it!" she says... Now, she has been home all day doing NOTHING! and she wants me to clean her bed that OUR puppy peed on!!!! Then my mom yells in telling me to clean it and why didn't I do it this morning! (this morning as she was yelling at me that we were going to be late for soccer!) and then how I never do anything for the puppy so she is going to get rid of it(even tho I am the only one that does anything for the puppy, they play with her while I am stuck with everything else), how absolutely worthless I am at listening and doing anything right! So I clean the bed in silence because I am soo tired and I just want to go to sleep! But now I am awake so this sucks!

This is exactly what I need, to be constantly reminded what a horrible person I am. Apparently it is proper parenting to tell your children they are worthless failures, ecpessially after they just gave there all in a contest that they had no chance at doing anything but failing in! Maybe this is all just telling me what I can't understand I really am a failure! lol can I really amount to anything? It seems it might be easier to quit now, it might be less painful ne!

sorry for how bad this sounds it may just be the lack of sleep talking but I am fed up with my life right now!

I have wanted a dog all my life! I took care of my cousins dogs for stints of time but they were never really mine! And today I bought me a dog! and not some small froo froo dog but a real dog! Ok here is the story:

Our house/cars get broken into ALOT! 5 times last year and our first time this year happen just on Friday. Some people broke into our back yard and stole my dad's soccer field liner which costs a few thousand dollars. So my mother the other day goes through the rant she goes through every time we get robbed. "Blah blah blah I'm gunna buy a gun then I can shoot whoever gets on or property, I'm gunna get a tazer then I will electrocute anyone who gets on my property... blah blah blah" BUT this time she added "I'm gunna get a rottweiler then nobody will steal from us!" BINGO she said it she wanted a big dog to scare off people from stealing our stuff.

Soo today was a normal day at the soccer park till my dad says "Hey girls look they have puppies over there!" (hahaha dad real sneaky I know you wanted a dog too but your just to scared of mother to get one yourself!) Well after much pleading and I mean ALOT of pleading I got my mother to say yes to having a puppy in the house! She was only $40!!!

So I now have a German Shepard Lab mix, She is absolutely adorable and I am going to call her Tsuki! My parents don't like that name but I don't care she responds to it so that is what I will call her! My little sister is her co-owner and will be taking care of her over summer vacation! When I get back the real training begins! She is only 6 weeks now so I cant train her much at the moment just potty and lead training and coming when called!


ok picture spamming time She is too cute!!!


She's saving a few crumbs for later!

Chillin with Meer our 19 year old senile cat.

Kyaaaaaaa cuteness!


naptime!

Ok I think that's enough for now! ttyl Jaa!

Hello hello!

So today turns out I need to do my taxes like NOW! Thing is a while ago I was going to do them but them my mother was all like "No No me and your dad have to do yours with ours so don't worry about it" So I give her all the stuff she needs and I don't worry about it... WELL today my mother asks me as we are driving to school "Hey did you do your taxes yet I think they are due today?" WHAT!!!!! Ahhhhdsajbdskbak YOU SAID YOU WOULD DO IT!!!! DAMN IT now I have hurry and do my taxes before 5pm today!!! why! now it's going to be all busy and stuff! YOU LYING MOTHER YOU!!!! But there is nothing I can do about it because my mother is a jerk to me!

Well Anth teacher is absent for the 3rd time in 2 weeks, but now that I know she is seriously sick I feel not so angry... I just wish she would tell us herself what is wrong with her and why she is gone so much! Come on we aren't stupid (well at least I am not) we know something is up! OH and stupid kid in class that says ya'know or like every other word I HATE YOU stop interrupting during class or I will go ahead and break your other leg!!!

Ok so I am bored now! Off to look for apartments!!! Getting my plane ticket this Friday YAY!
OH Oh oh!!! I totally want to go see Shige's butai now... LOL he plays an American medical student who happens to be a sex addict!!! Bwhahaha Shige a sex addict I gotta see that! ok ok ttyl Jaa!

So I was surfing youtube and I came across an old Massu CM, I had seen it many times before but this time I actually listened to the other guy speaking and OMG it's Shingo! The videos are super blurry so it is hard to see at first BUT it is totally him! I know that smile anywhere!!! I have no clue what the commercials are about but I do know Massu is around 12-15 in this CM making them 7-10 years old? Kyaaa But Massu and Shingo in the same CM they should of had a smile face off!!!

here are the CMs
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bWXpIrg7lyo&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xe-CRZh9_Cs&feature=related


ps no more Smap 101 for me I have my first day of real work tomorrow I hope I like the school I am at because I am stuck there till just a few weeks before I leave to Japan!

Happy Easter! How did you spend your Sunday?

Mine was only ok... I'm not big on family get togethers, not with my family anyways! Normally we would wake up and go searching for eggs and our Easter baskets while my father filmed us. It was cute when I was a kid but this year we woke up and cleaned the house, we did get to look for baskets tho. I found mine first as always lol it's cute that I still even get a basket, but it is easy to tell who is the most loved in our family. The baskets are never equal, my younger brother got double the candy my little sister got and triple what I got... But I am just happy I get anything at all!

My grandparents picked us up for church. I like singing at church that is the biggest reason I go, I miss singing in a choir sometimes. It bugs me how everyone can be so happy that early in the morning! I like going to church but being religious is not so much for me, I hate talking about religion and I think the whole Jesus thing is a little weird... lol if my family heard me say this they would probably smack me over the head and give me "a good talking to" BUT seriously if a guy came and said "I am the son of god follow me and you shall be saved" I would be like "Who the heck are you? what makes you better than me? can you prove to me that you are really the son of god?" The last thing I would do is be like Ok and follow him blindly, but that is what the bible wants you to do? Maybe I am going to hell for this but if god really loves us and whatnot he would let us into heaven whether we have a relationship with his son or not, right? Oh well enough about religion it's too much of a soft topic for people so I normally avoid it!

So after church it's time to eat, turns out my mother actually bought steak for me to make since me, my older sister, and her girlfriend all don't eat pork! It was good, but I am still lacking an apatite so I couldn't eat much. I am hoping this lack of appetite stays for a bit that way it will be easier to lose weight and such.

My brother came over late and he was totally wasted! lol he only stayed like 10 minutes and that's all it took for him to throw a croquet stick on the roof, eat some food and just cause an overall ruckus! lol poor him he hates family functions almost as much as me, no wonder he comes drunk to most of them lately! Not to long after everyone left and it was back to cleaning, I had to clean my brothers room for him again! Damn fatass prince of the family! I really hate him he gets everything handed to him on a silver platter! by his age I was not only cleaning my own room, cooking my own food, but also buying my own clothes! I really do hate him so much!

The thing that makes my day all the worse is I had an escape and I didn't take it!!!! Arrrhhhh I should have left with my senpai's to California!!! They even called me this morning making sure I didn't want to come! In truth I wanted to go more than anything!!! BUT this is the last big family gathering I have before I leave to Japan and this was also our last family easter, no more eggs and baskets... plus I kinda hope by this time next year to be moved out of the house... then I will only have to spend the mandatory 10 minutes here and then I can leave!!! *sigh* I wouldn't have to do everything anymore!!! I wish for that day soo bad!

So all in all Easter... not one of my favorite holidays, It is fun for kids and all but I hate it more and more as I get older... tho I would like to do the whole Easter Bunny thing with my kids but I don't know if they do that in Japan? I don't think so? Well this is getting too long so jaa TTYL!

It's almost 12 already?!? *sigh* this free day is going by too fast!

My family just left THANK GOD!!!! My mother is crazy! She accused me of being on drugs this morning, shined a flashlight in my eyes and everything! Well of course I am going to be all blah when I have only had 2 hours of sleep!!!! She woke me up at 5:30am!!! Asking what my plans were for this weekend, I had told her yesterday!!!! So kinda groggy I told her again I have hw to catch up on all day and then school tonight..."What time will you be home tonight?!?" Whatever time I feel like it because nobody will be home DUH! Tomorrow I just have a meet up at night "What kind of meet up, I have a feeling these Study groups and such are just excuses for something else!!!" "LIKE WHAT!?! I have the work we do to prove that we study!" Honestly what bad things would I of all people do!!! I don't like drinking, I wont touch drugs, I am in NO relationship more than just friends!!! why the hell doesn't she trust me! Do I really seem like the person to go out hard core partying!?!? For crying out loud I'd rather be at ColdStones or chasing bunnies than a crazy party!

Well just 2 hours later she asked me what my plans where again! I was in the middle of writing an essay! That is when she accused me of being on drugs! "Why are you all spacey?!? What drugs have you been taking?!? *shines a flashlight in my eyes* OMG your eyes are red!!" LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE!!! I didn't yell at her I just said that I would never do drugs and I really need to finish this essay! BUT FINALLY they have left! I can be at peace!!! I kind feel like crying right now partly from just feeling horrible and from feeling overjoyed that she has finally left! But I wont cry cus that's not my style lol!

*sigh* I don't even feel like eating! But I should eat something all I had today was a cookie (apparently my little sister made cookies last night) OMG it was sooo good!!! But right now I just have no appetite, damn mother making me all depressed and not hungry... well maybe I should use this to start my whole "recognizing my hunger signals" This way I can get into the middle normal range of my BMI. Hopefully I can do it before I get to Japan!

Ok well I will go now ttyl Jaa!